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The Perk, Friday Morning

She was, in theory studying her medical texts. In reality, she was far more interested in playing with the whipped cream on top of her hot chocolate, and staring out the window.

Still, Ino supposed it was okay, since she was getting a decent bit of work done anyway. Just a lot slower than she could if she’d really put her effort into it all. But, hey, hot chocolate. With whipped cream.

It seriously deserved at least some attention.

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Amber came in for hot chocolate with tons of whipped cream.

She wasn't exactly in the best of moods, but not enitrely cranky either.

She gave Ino a little wave when she saw her sitting by the window. "Hey.."

"Hey, you," she said, on the mild side of cheerful, and just a little too engrossed in wiping a bit of whipped cream off her nose. "Haven't seen you 'round for awhile."

"Been here and there," she said as she walked over, mug in hand. "Can I sit with you or are you waiting on someone?"

"Sit," she said, gesturing at one of the other chairs. "Not waiting for anyone 'less I don't know about it and then even still I'm not waiting for them."

Uh. Did that even make sense?

Made perfect sense. "Good," she said and sat.

"What've you been up to lately?" 'Cause, you know, they haven't spoken since the whole Liir-Arm thing.

Ino blinked at her and seriously wondered how she ought to answer that.

...

"...kinda crappy, really," she said, slightly dubiously. "You?"

Amber took a sip of her hot chocolate, settled back some, and licked the cream from her top lip.

"...kind of crappy too, but not too crappy I guess. What's up?"

Er.

"...had a fight with Liir?" she tried.

Hm. She really wasn't that surprised.

"I didn't know; he's not said anything." Really.

"Pretty bad one?"

"I'd say so, yeah," she said, shrugging a bit. "Considering he yelled for me to get the hell out, and all."

Blink.

"Liir yelled at you to get the hell out?"

Ino sipped her hot chocolate.

"Yeah. So, uh, it's weird he didn't mention it to you."

"You've not come up in any recent conversations," she said, with a shrug.

"Which stands to reason, considering, yah? What did you guys fight about anyway?"

"Told him what I thought exactly of him. He didn't like it."

Ino set her cup down with a thump.

"This is stupid. Do you want to know, or not? 'Cause I already know you aren't going to like it, so I might as well get two people pissed off at me instead of one, even though he doesn't seem to give a shit either."

Well.

Amber set her cup down too and looked at her evenly. "Yah, I want to know, but hold judgement, okay? You don't know if I'll get pissed or not."

Edited 2009-02-20 21:31 (UTC)

"I told him he was revolting," Ino said, raising her chin defiantly. "I told him that I didn't trust him because of the way he treats people. That I hated how nearly every conversation turns 'round to him so he can make it really freakin' obvious that he's had a horrible life and oh woe is him. I told him that the way he treats the people he's supposed to love is disgusting."

"He loves someone, apparently anyway, but then they get fed up with the way he clings because apparently he can't go a day without seeing them, and every time they do something he doesn't like it's all 'woe, for I was terribly abused as a child and you ought to pity me 'cause I just don't understand.' It's the way, when the person he's nearly surgically attached himself too gets fed up with that crap, and he just... moves on to the next person like the one they were with before doesn't even count. Never even counted. That's sick. That's wrong. That's not love at all if you can drop them and never care at all after. People you love aren't supposed to change as easy as changing your pants."

"I told him that I didn't want his passive-aggressive apologies that try to turn every fight around so that it's all my fault. I told him I didn't trust him one bit because he's made it impossible for me to. I told him, and I quote, 'People aren't meant to be used as anchors the way you use them. It's a trap, it fucks with the other persons' head, and then to save themselves they lash out at the source. You're too dependent on someone else for your stability.' That's when he yelled for me to get out. And I did, proving that I have more consideration for him than he did for me the last time I yelled for him to get out and he wouldn't go."

"That's what I told him." She leaned back in her chair, picking up her hot chocolate, and radiating fury. "And what does he do? Goes and plays with his dog as pleased as he can be. Shows how much I matter, right?"

"Goddamn," was all she muttered after all of that.

Then, "Fuck."

That was a mouthful. It was a lot. And how in the hell was she supposed to take that in and... "Fuck."

Yeah, Amber wasn't real intelligent with the words here, yet. Give her a minute.

Ino had no idea if that was towards her, towards Liir, towards the fact that there'd been a fight that bad and she hadn't heard about it or what.

Ino settled for getting more whipped cream on her nose as she took another sip.

[Fleeing home! Back in about an hour!]

Probably all of that combined. But mostly that she hadn't heard about it and that... Ino knew him well enough to believe that he was using her. And if he was using her, then what was she supposed to do aout it?

"I don't know," she said, glancing out the window, hand to forehead. "I don't know what to think. He never acted like you two had such a horrid fight. Never said a word. He's been happy, you know? With me. At least I thought, or think he is. I don't see him as clingy, or as needy, but shit, Ino, that's one bad fucking fight and I feel... hell, I don't know what to feel or think."

She glanced back at her. "What set this off?"

[Okie dokie!]

"I was mad at him 'cause of the last fight we had, the one where he'd walked out on me and told me to get off my high horse and everything, right? So I wasn't going to talk to him, but Ichigo said I ought to at least try telling him what all bothered me about him. So when I saw him, just you know, cooking in the common room, it wasn't planned, but that's what I said. That him walking out on me came down to trust and trust was all tied up in the rest of it... I told him the truth."

She shrugged, the motion a bit jerky. "If he's been all happy, then I guess that proves my point, and I've been very thoroughly 'dumped' and replaced in his life by you."

"Yah, whoa, wait a minute, Ino. There's a big difference between me and you. I'm his girlfriend, you're his sister. You can't dump family. They're there no matter what."

...

"Was he just as mean to you as you were to him?"

"Then why doesn't he care?" she asked, her lips twisting. "Because I don't believe he gives a damn, and if he says anything it'll be along the 'well, it was all your fault' sort of thing. And I'm sick of that. I don't need someone always making me feel bad 'cause I don't bend to their clingy needs. Besides, you might be his girlfriend, and I was his sister, but there's not a whole lot of difference. Bet he uses you for comfort. Bet he's said stuff like 'at least you try' and crap. Why can't he try. It's been over a year to figure out that what he went through before isn't everything. God."

Ino was grumpy, yeah. "Mean? In that fight? Oh, you mean like him claiming that he's not trusted me for months 'cause of a phone call where I said I was fine so I could get so space to make myself be fine? Apparently that's too big of a lie for him, so he hasn't trusted me then. So, really, he's the one that's been lying the whole damn time. And I didn't even know it, he never mentioned anything 'bout the phone call. I think that's a whole lot meaner than me telling him to his face what I think."

Amber was quiet for a moment, lots of thoughts going through her head.

But she said, "I'm wondering why, if you feel for him like you do, you are wasting your energy on being pissed instead of just writing him off."

[Zomg so sorry. Unexpected company was unexpected.]

"Because he could be more!" she exploded, throwing her arms up in frustrating. "Because he's my brother! I don't know! I care about him the fucked up idiot that he is, but I'm not going to help him fuck himself up worse, so I'm not going to talk to him!"

[NP! Heee.]

Edited 2009-02-21 01:16 (UTC)

Amber just stared at her. Hard.

"Either you care or you don't. Either he's your brother, or he's not. You love someone you deal."

A beat.

"Tell me the truth: you think he's just using me?"

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