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fandomtownies2021-10-04 05:11 am
white_oleander) wrote in fandomtownies2021-10-04 05:11 am
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Turtle & Canary; Monday [10/04].
This last weekend had been...a lot for Astrid. She was expecting to have a lot to deal with just from having her first therapy session with Dr. Lecter on Friday, and, it turned out, that she had so much more to add onto that now, because you didn't exactly expect to wake up the next day as a different version of yourself, one that had never actually come to Fandom, and all the memories of what that would have meant for her, and also, apparently, having been cast by a different actress.
And a lot of them? Were not great. Startling, in fact, and at least ten times harder than what Astrid had become today, and she doubted anyone could blame her, with what she'd gone through. So it was strange, to think about the fact that she was kind of right all along: there was nothing Fandom could put her through that would be worse than what she'd experience back home. And now she had the mixed-up, messed-up weekend to prove it.
It was interesting, though, that her life in Fandom had still given her Claire. Out of all the things to share with that Astrid.....why that one?
But would she really have traded it for any of the others? Getting shot by Starr for sleeping with Ray, sexual favors for pot underneath the school bleachers, being visciously attacked and scarred by dogs, being starved out in Hollywood by Amelia Ramos and her padlocked fridge, selling all of her nice things for Rena Grushenka, and making eyes at her boyfriend...
It was almost as if she couldn't recognize that Astrid as herself anymore.
But she was herself again, and herself had her first day on her own doing the ordering and inventory tasks that Summer had promoted her to doing, and she would do them, as best she can, while her mind wandered far too much on experiences she had if things had been different.
At least she wouldn't be out of things to talk about if she went to see Dr. Lecter again this week.
...as if they didn't have enough to talk about already.
Today's Squishy Flavors
Cinnamon Bun
Taco
Red
Turtle & Canary is open!
And a lot of them? Were not great. Startling, in fact, and at least ten times harder than what Astrid had become today, and she doubted anyone could blame her, with what she'd gone through. So it was strange, to think about the fact that she was kind of right all along: there was nothing Fandom could put her through that would be worse than what she'd experience back home. And now she had the mixed-up, messed-up weekend to prove it.
It was interesting, though, that her life in Fandom had still given her Claire. Out of all the things to share with that Astrid.....why that one?
But would she really have traded it for any of the others? Getting shot by Starr for sleeping with Ray, sexual favors for pot underneath the school bleachers, being visciously attacked and scarred by dogs, being starved out in Hollywood by Amelia Ramos and her padlocked fridge, selling all of her nice things for Rena Grushenka, and making eyes at her boyfriend...
It was almost as if she couldn't recognize that Astrid as herself anymore.
But she was herself again, and herself had her first day on her own doing the ordering and inventory tasks that Summer had promoted her to doing, and she would do them, as best she can, while her mind wandered far too much on experiences she had if things had been different.
At least she wouldn't be out of things to talk about if she went to see Dr. Lecter again this week.
...as if they didn't have enough to talk about already.
Cinnamon Bun
Taco
Red
Turtle & Canary is open!