Rey's warehouse- Sunday morning

[thatwaslucky]

If you asked Rey how she was doing right now, her internal answer was something like "???" She was back and she'd be staying but she'd also be going home again, but she didn't know when or what she'd be doing, or what the plan was two weeks from now, and she didn't know how she felt. She didn't like the apartment being quiet, so she was trying to get out and do normal things. So she was planning on working today, and she was definitely getting back to the warehouse today.

She did send off a text to Anakin to let him know where she'd be, and then she started on the course for the first time in... how long had it even been now?

She did feel more centered, though. It was sort of odd that after years of self-doubt when it came to all things Jedi, she felt completely sure that what she did right now was good.


[Expecting one but open!]

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[sith_happened]

Anakin came down to the warehouse a few minutes later. "Rey?"

[thatwaslucky]

"Yeah," she called, just before a jump.

[sith_happened]

"Welcome back!" he called up.

[thatwaslucky]

"Thanks! Just be a minute," she called back, landing.

[sith_happened]

"Take your time," Anakin said. "I'm just glad you're back."

[thatwaslucky]

She'd say thank you, but she was focusing on the course, somehow both putting her all into it and also not putting a ton of effort in.

[sith_happened]

It was a Jedi thing, and Anakin watched proudly, leaning again the wall.

[thatwaslucky]

She still wasn't the best, but she was her best, and she finished the course actually faster than usual.

"Sorry for the wait," she said as she came down the ramp.

[sith_happened]

"I'm not upset about it," Anakin said, grinning. "You looked very sure of yourself up there."

[thatwaslucky]

"Yeah. I think I feel better," she said, not sure how else to explain it.

[sith_happened]

"Good," Anakin said simply. "It should feel like a part of you but that's impossible to explain."

[thatwaslucky]

"It feels like it always has been, I just always second-guessed it," she admitted.

[sith_happened]

Anakin nodded. "And I don't think I could teach you not to."

[thatwaslucky]

"Probably not. I guess life experience had to do that," she said.

[sith_happened]

Anakin nodded. "You have to really be by yourself and realize that you're enough."

[thatwaslucky]

"Apparently," she said, a little wryly. "I feel pretty stupid about a lot of things now."

[sith_happened]

"Don't," Anakin said, frowning lightly. "You're still learning. You'll always be learning."

[thatwaslucky]

"I know. And yet," she said.

[sith_happened]

"Self-doubt," Anakin said, nodding.

[thatwaslucky]

"I'm not sure it is," Rey said. "Maybe self-reflection. Trying not to repeat mistakes."

[sith_happened]

"Making newer, messier mistakes," Anakin said.

[thatwaslucky]

"See, but no," Rey said.

[sith_happened]

"Maybe not for a while," Anakin agreed.

[thatwaslucky]

"There's a very good reason I'd like to keep myself from making more mistakes like that," Rey said.

[sith_happened]

"Is that reason you've had enough trauma for several lifetimes?" Anakin guessed.