Blackstone Foundry and Forge, Thursday
Thursday, August 15th, 2019 06:24 amIt had been Sorry, yesterday, that had snapped Fjord out of it.
It had been the constant humiliation of being bumped right back to where he'd started, of feeling so, so useless compared to everybody else. Of speaking in his actual accent with a tuskless mouth because good toys didn't hide who they were from anybody, especially not their nearest and dearest. But good toys also made concessions about who they were, hid away the monster they had always been, so that everybody could be happy.
It had taken feeling small. And it hadn't happened right away. Had festered yesterday after the game for the longest while, screaming inside his head about why that had hurt so much, all with a little, half-painted resin smile.
And then, once he was home, once he had been out of the sight of anybody else, once it was safe again to lie, even if only to himself, one word had escaped his lips in a low, pained drawl:
"Fuck."
Today he was at the forge, though. Bright and early. Smiling that resin smile. Prepared to swallow that little bit of strength and dignity that using Vandran's accent had been giving to him this past year so that nobody would mistake him for a bad toy.
Setting to work. Swinging a hammer. Keeping his head down. Feeling small. Being small.
He was a miniature, after all.
[OOC: Oooopen.]
It had been the constant humiliation of being bumped right back to where he'd started, of feeling so, so useless compared to everybody else. Of speaking in his actual accent with a tuskless mouth because good toys didn't hide who they were from anybody, especially not their nearest and dearest. But good toys also made concessions about who they were, hid away the monster they had always been, so that everybody could be happy.
It had taken feeling small. And it hadn't happened right away. Had festered yesterday after the game for the longest while, screaming inside his head about why that had hurt so much, all with a little, half-painted resin smile.
And then, once he was home, once he had been out of the sight of anybody else, once it was safe again to lie, even if only to himself, one word had escaped his lips in a low, pained drawl:
"Fuck."
Today he was at the forge, though. Bright and early. Smiling that resin smile. Prepared to swallow that little bit of strength and dignity that using Vandran's accent had been giving to him this past year so that nobody would mistake him for a bad toy.
Setting to work. Swinging a hammer. Keeping his head down. Feeling small. Being small.
He was a miniature, after all.
[OOC: Oooopen.]