Covent Garden Flowers; Wednesday [09/29].
Wednesday, September 29th, 2021 05:18 amAstrid didn't need the flowers to sing her lullabies today; she'd barely been sleeping at all since she gotten back from California, especially with the emptiness of her room now feeling even colder, larger, almost like infinitate space. All she could think of was her mother's words, her embrace, tumbling into her ear and making everything she'd built up in the past three, almost four now, years come crumbling down. It almost hurt to be here now, when she could be there with her again, and she knew that was wrong. She knew what was happening. She knew that Ingrid knew exactly what Astrid wanted to hear, and she said it, but had she said it just to get what she wanted? Or had she possibly meant it? It felt sincere, so sincere that it thrummed inside of Astrid,, but that was what Ingrid did, that was what she was good at, making you just believe...
...she would be eighteen soon. Just shy of a month. It would be years still, probably, until Ingrid got out, but how hard would it be for Astrid to get in? What would she have to do? What were the odds that she could end up in the same place, the same ward, maybe even the same cell block...
It wasn't the first time Astrid had had thoughts like these. But it was the first time it seemed close enough to be a possibility, and, even though she ached for it, she could also see everything wrong with it, she could be angry at herself for dismissing everything she'd become in the last three years so easily, just for an embrace.
So she didn't need the flowers' lullabies today. The thoughts that kept her up in her too-big, too-lonely room settled long enough while she was behind the counter at the shop for her to slip in and out of some much needed sleep while she was there, even it just meant all her dreams were wreathed in oleander.
Covent Garden is open!
...she would be eighteen soon. Just shy of a month. It would be years still, probably, until Ingrid got out, but how hard would it be for Astrid to get in? What would she have to do? What were the odds that she could end up in the same place, the same ward, maybe even the same cell block...
It wasn't the first time Astrid had had thoughts like these. But it was the first time it seemed close enough to be a possibility, and, even though she ached for it, she could also see everything wrong with it, she could be angry at herself for dismissing everything she'd become in the last three years so easily, just for an embrace.
So she didn't need the flowers' lullabies today. The thoughts that kept her up in her too-big, too-lonely room settled long enough while she was behind the counter at the shop for her to slip in and out of some much needed sleep while she was there, even it just meant all her dreams were wreathed in oleander.
Covent Garden is open!